|| jOjO ||

sweet dream

2010-10-22T11:31:00.003+08:00

I can't wait for December.

I can't wait to get my hands on designing my room.

I'm excited. extremely.

Can you tell?

- May all turn out well

dream in the cloud

2010-09-21T02:40:00.003+08:00

Lately, I've been really busy... too busy to even update myself with what's happening around me. But that's kind of good in a way, I guess. It keeps me from thinking unnecessary stuff.

Ahh.. but one thing's for sure, I'm in financial crisis! This is no joke. I'm seriously thinking that I can't go on like this but I don't dare to take that step... I don't dare to risk it, not knowing whether I'll regret.

I've been thinking.. of course I did. Almost every morning... And in the end, I'll tell myself, "DARE TO DREAM JO. ONE LIFE ONE CHANCE." And I know I wont regret. Even if it seems like I'm wasting time. But then again, why is it a a waste of time? If I were to tell you that I've only got 2 years left to live. Would you still say that all this "pursing a dream" is a waste of time? Being practical is not necessary a "good" thing, it's just the SAFEST way to live one's life. And for a person with a pathetic low self-esteem like me, being on the safest road is comforting. Can you see how contradicting I can be? Yes, I know I'm incredibly hopeless. But hey, who's 100% confident right? Not knowing what the future brings scares me, I wont deny. But what I imagine my future to become gives me hope to look forward. With expectations, comes disappointment and failure. With disappointment and failure comes success. However, without expectations, comes nothing. And like I've said before, the safest route. :/

And the cruel reality? Time.

"Time waits for no one"

"You can't turn back time, what's gone is gone"

Phrases like these can be really scary right? Well, at least for me, it does.

Oh my! I know you're confused. I'm as confuse as you. I don't even know what am I trying to say. It just shows how chaotic my thinkings are. Well, that's the problem. I motivates myself and I demoralize myself as well. And at the end of the day, I'll get so exhausted that I stop.

"ah... I'm tired."

Everything disappears and became empty. It feels empty. As emo as it sounds, I wanna give up. It kinda feels like you're drowning in the water just that you're not exactly drowning. You can breathe. Or maybe like in space. Travelling an endless journey in slow motion. OH! I thought of another one! It's like being deaf in a crowded cross junction. Argh! I know you get what I meant.

It's not always that I'll feel this way. I'm like some retarded blockhead. I can forget about all these when I'm working or doing something. And when I have time for myself, my brain starts running wild again.

hmm.. maybe everyone feels like that too when they have time for themselves.

Geshh! I know what's wrong, I know what I'm missing. I'm just waiting. Meanwhile, I'm growing stronger too, I hope.

- I'm a dreamer

addictive

2010-07-24T23:57:00.003+08:00

Everyone is addicted to something, living or non-living.

The most common thing would be coffee. I'm not, I'm more of a tea lover. But like coffee, it can become an addiction. Mainly because of Love. We love it, so we want it on a daily basis. If we don't have it, we will carve for it.

Well, my addiction is media. I'm visually attracted to pretty stuffs or beautiful stuff. Which narrows down to one of my addicts, Manga.

I can spend the whole day reading and reading and reading. They may be fictional but I like the way they create hopes and dreams in my mind. It's like having countless fairytales just no princess or prince on a white horse. In other words, I JUST LOVE THEM.

BUT nowadays, the manga that I'm following are GETTING LICENSED. And if I have to purchase them, they will be in chinese, which isn't really the problem. The problem is BUYING THEM, not adding that you have to get them from volume 1. I'm not as free as before. You cant expect me to go to the comic store all the time right. ~~AND DO YOU KNOW IT WILL COST ME A BOMB TO AFFORD SUCH EXPENSIVE "hobby"?!~~

I rather pay online or something. But its ridiculous. How come all the famous titles like Naruto and Bleach. THEIRS ARE NOT LICENSED. If you wanna license the manga, at least come out with the anime or something.

No no. I've changed my mind. No compromising. DONT LICENSE IT AT ALL.

Godd... it's getting me all depress. It's like telling a coffee addict that there's no coffee anymore.

It's my way to relax. Something I enjoy doing on my weekends, like a treat to reward myself for all the hard work. Now, it's all gone.

I FEED ON THOSE GORGEOUS 2D MEN.

THEY ARE MY HOPE. lol.

Oh well, so much complaints but what's done is done. Let us all pray for a better tomorrow.

My life is getting boring each day since I first stepped into the working life.

WHAT'S WRONG?

or what's missing? :/

- I don't wanna grow up

2010-07-22T00:58:00.002+08:00

I've got MC for two days, 21 & 22. Although I have to work tomorrow. But it would be TGIF!
Anyway, all thanks to my mum. She came to check on me and realized I was burning up and she insisted I go see a doctor.
I told the doctor about my migraines and he recommended an injection. It was for my fever but it will help my migraines too. So I agreed.
My mum was like "Jo, Don't look at the needle."
And the doc went, "It's okay, She's a big girl. I believe she's not afraid. And it's not painful."
With his words of "encouragement & assurance", I still didn't look but was not afraid.
And it turned out,

I HATE PAIN. seriously.

I suck at enduring pain and will avoid all pain unless necessary.

- the second thing I hate most would be Oily Face.
... I think. It depends.

Wendy's

2010-07-17T23:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENDY ONG!

I hope your tai tai wish will come true. So I can be a tai tai's friend. LOL.

It's a celebration for WENDY to celebrate her birthday one week in advance. Yes, one week.

We went to watch Despicable Me ~~(again)~~.
And had LAKSA STEAMBOAT for dinner.

O! Did I mention that it's the BEST STEAMBOAT IN THE WORLD?!?! lol. yes. I love it TTM!

XOXO to My New Camera.

Got to cam-whore with Nat and XL. And I picked out the best for the following category.

best group photo

best individual photo

O! I believe the awesome technology is by the JAPANESE.

HAHA! What more must I say? ;>

-simply amazing

Failed

2010-07-11T16:02:00.001+08:00

I was lazy to get my lunch so I thought I'll try a ~~new~~ creation.
(I bet many tried this before and like me, they'll never do it again)

I called it, "BANANA KOKO CRUNCH"!!!

And the verdict, one word.

DISGUSTING!

Seriously, it's all heaty and weird. I love them separately but if you put them together... no.way.

But its still not as bad as my attempt to add SWEET DARK SAUCE in my FRIED RICE.

That was beyond disgusting.

That was also the time that I understand why NOBODY cooked this way.

FYI: Don't doubt my cooking skills. I'm awesome, just inexperience. ;P

- Food rocks my world

JAPANESE

2010-07-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

My Japanese Class starts today! :)
It's gonna be a busy Wednesday from today onwards!

It feels awesome taking the first step... my first step to my dream.
I'm going all the way.

- Get up and go, take a breath and be strong

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

2010-07-04T23:13:00.003+08:00

It's coming to the end of my weekend.

There's seven days in a week.
WHY IS THERE ONLY TWO DAYS FOR WEEKEND?
Who is the evil one that set this rule?

I miss my free time. I miss those times when I'm so free that I spent them on sleeping. HAHAHAHAHAHA! Highest record is 17 hours! I wanna beat that record but I dont know when can I get the chance to do so.

I drew my LOVE SCHEDULER for the month aug & sep. As usual, I LOVE IT!
And when I looked back at the past months, there was a great sense of satisfaction. Why?
CAUSE EVERYDAY IS FILLED WITH ACTIVITIES!!! :)

I'm glad that I spent every single day wisely. I just like it that every box is filled with something.
Like they always say:

Live your life to the fullest. Live with no regrets.

Anyway, I spent my weekends wisely this week too!

Sat:

Finally bought a digital camera. BE PREPARED FOR IMAGES OF ME, ME AND MORE ME!! HAHAAHAHAHA!!!
Bought my "HAIR ESSENCE" (haha! that's what the bottle wrote). It's ESSENTIAL and I got the pink one. IT SMELLS NICE! Well, that the selling point for me. We shall see if it works anot.
Got my NIVEA too. AND I BOUGHT THE GINVERA Green Tea Jade Dark Circles Roll Away. There was a promotion with purchase of ten dollars. :)

Although I didn't get to go shopping with nat and wendy but I spent alot too. Satisfied~
But I still did went to meet them and the guys for dinner. After that CH and I went Cal's house to watch the World Cup and play MAHJONG.

ME... watching the world cup? CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? lol. But it was fun. haha! Mainly cause calvin's bro comments were damn funny.

Then we MJ! :DD But we played 20/40. IT WAS MY FIRST TIME AND I LOST 14 BUCKS!
Well, there's always wins and losses right? What to do? CALVIN WAS BEING A BURDEN. lol.

Sun:

Damn sleepy. Woke up at 2 plus? Went to eat chicken rice with my brother. After that he bought a packet of chicken rice and went to give his.. I'm also not sure what's their relationship but still... WHEN WILL SOMEONE DO THAT FOR ME?? lol.

Anyway, I was suppose to clean up my room. But it's now past midnight and I only made my room messier. TELL ME HOW? Tomorrow got to work so have to go to bed soon.
SIGH SIGH.. I spent my day surfing the web and trying to download some albums BUT THE FREAKING INTERNET.... I WOULD LIKE TO STRESS ON HOW MUCH I'M UNHAPPY WITH SINGTEL MIO. What's the use of using my laptop with no internet. I practically can't do a thing and just kept wasting my time trying to refresh the pages. In the end, I only managed to download one - Automatic Loveletter.

I went jogging in the evening with my sis. I think it has been months since I last jogged. I should find time to exercise more. Must lead a healthy lifestyle and burn those unwanted fats!

Yihui came to eat dinner with my dad and siblings. She used to come eat with us when we were in sec sch. After dinner, we chatted for awhile at our house canal. We used to do that too! So nostalgic.

I'm blessed with wonderful people around me. I feel that I'm an amazingly lucky person.
CAN YOU FEEL HOW HAPPY AM I?

Yes, I'm very happy now.

I'm going to bed now if not I will be one unhappy person tomorrow. NIGHTS!

- If you think the right way, you'll live the right way

how these words became my strength.

2010-06-29T00:01:00.005+08:00

Sometimes we can fall in love with someone for all the wrong reasons, and still love them even after all the heartache because most of the time, we can’t pick who we love. And even though we know we shouldn’t love them, we do and always will, because there are just some people in our lives who will get to us for reasons we can’t explain, even when they shouldn’t.
runawaytrain

2010-06-28T23:36:00.002+08:00

I've got my Macbook back!!! And my initial plan was to photobooth-whore with it.

But after looking at gorgeous girls on tumblr, I've decided to not make myself look at myself. LOL. Does that even make sense?

ANYWAY, today the intern came!! He's half chinese half malay and he's 22!! He seems like a nice guy and I think it feels different, not in a bad way, to not be alone in the office. Although I cant blast my music and have a sing along session while I do my whatever work my boss gave me. HAHA!

THERE'S SOMETHING GOING ON TOMORROW! AND I'M FREAKING EXCITEDNERVOUSANXIOUSHOPEFULPROCRASTINATINGBRAVE and the list goes on.

I wont say!! BUT STILL... WISH ME LUCK! :D

P.S. MEN ARE ALL THE SAME.

- I hate when you say how you love me now

outdoor

2010-06-26T23:10:00.000+08:00

I just got the sudden urge to blog.

TODAY I WENT PRAWNING FOR THE FIRST TIME.
Although I got prawn-slapped in the face, BUT... I had fun!

It's alot faster than fishing. Less waiting, I like.

WORMS still disgust me even though I'm not afraid to touch them and pierce their body through the hook again and again and AGAIN. MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Overall, it was a good day.

P.S. WONG XUELI, I LOVE YOU TOO! :D

- you got me thinking

No time.

2010-06-20T23:41:00.002+08:00

I have so much to blog about but..

I'VE GOT NO TIME!

and partially I'm lazy too. I cant wait for my Macbook to come back.
MY SELFISH BROTHER wants his com back.

rawr.

a day of thoughts

2010-05-13T23:51:00.006+08:00

Besides working in front of my com non-stop for 10 long hours,

I had lots of other things on my mind.

I've been thinking about... life, death, my goals, my future, the ~~past~~, etc.

If you learn to die, you'll learn to live

A phrase that got my brain cells excited. But in the end, there isn't really an answer.
But somehow, I've got that little strength again.
Maybe its time to face it once more and hopefully it will be our last.

SBILYOMTFM. HBB, LY.

I swear I'll be fine.

-remember our song

on my mind

2010-05-12T01:49:00.002+08:00

I'm constantly thinking of someone.
Anyone can occupy my mind.
But only one can occupy my heart.
And that person

is you.

- believe me when I say "I Love You"

2010-05-11T01:09:00.004+08:00

Look at my ~~ugly~~CUTE face! HAHA!

It's MONDAY!!! What more must i say...

I started work 30 mins late but because my boss is later so this time not counted la hor. HOHO! Anyway, I ended at 8.30pm okay! But my boss says I can choose to work from home tmr/ I can leave early. WOO~

I've got lots to complain about. First, it's the BLOODY WEATHER! Don't you feel that it's FK-ING HUMID TODAY! Add negativity to my mood only. TSK.

Secondly, I caught a cold from god knows where. My nose started to run the second I reached my office. And at 12 noon sharp, I was fk-ing hungry. So I went to pack up.

Ate Ginger and Spring Onions Pork with Rice. Woo~ Damn nice! Serious. Saw my boss there too. haha! In the end, he regretted not buying from the same stall as me. What can I say, good food comes to me. haha!!!!!

You are thinking that my day was getting better right? BUT YOU ARE SO WRONG! I became damn damn sleepy at 1pm! TSK x A MILLION TIMES!

It was pure torture. Adding that my boss is beside me, I have no choice but to carry on doing my work. And what was worse? I AM DOING ~~FLASH~~! Again, everytime I touch flash, I FEEL LIKE WANNA THROW MY COM OUT OF THE WINDOW.

Anyway, I managed to finish ONE PART. Then carry on another project- MOE. I have to edit the html. When I heard the word "HTML", do you know that I thought it was the end of the world for me?!!?! BUT THANK GOD! It was just copy and paste. HAHA!

CLOCK OUT at 8.30pm! :D

That smile didn't last long. I'm now at BP Macdonald's waiting for dear peilin. She is going to give me more work that might last me through the night. ISN'T SHE "LOVELY"?

LOL. okay la. let me whine if not I might mutate into some BLOOD-THIRSTY MONSTER! And it will be THE END OF THE WORLD for you, you and YOU! MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

godddd..... where o where could peilin be? where o where could she be?

- stupid monday

pretty

2010-05-09T19:37:00.002+08:00

I'm happy today. Cause I finally got my afternoon nap! I feel a little recharged since yesterday was a long day too. Went to ion orchard in the afternoon.

Heels were killing me and I don't know why but I started to doze off whenever I get to sit. But I had a nice Mother's day dinner.

I treated my mummy and siblings to eat at rakuichi japanese restaurant recommended by Chenghao. I think she likes it but then it's just that it's quite expensive. But I still think its money well-spent.

We cabbed home after that and I got my brother to pay for the cab fare. *muhaha!

Got home just in time for my taiwan drama. NICE OR WHAT! ME LIKE!

At first I thought can mahjong. Then the stupid tham cant make it even though he's the one that suggested it. LONG TIME NO MAHJONG. ME NO LIKE.

Anyway, my stupid brother was downloading again and leeched my wireless. *tsk

No mahjong + no internet. = GO TO BED , which is actually a good thing. But then since now my weekdays are burned, I use my weekends more wisely.

ANYWAY, so I happily went to bed. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? that stupid Tham had to call me at 3am. !@@#&%!%^@%# I cannot remember what he said but I know its nothing important. lol. But my brother was like, "If you dont wanna talk then just hang up the phone, give me the phone." haha!!!

AND JUST WENT I THOUGHT I CAN SLEEP TIL LATE AFTERNOON, MY MOTHER HAD TO CALL ME AT 10AM!

At that moment I thought to myself, "WHY IS EVERYONE STOPPING ME FROM GETTING MY ABNORMALLY LONG HOURS OF SLEEP"

I'm used to waking up early so I can't go back to bed. So I surf the web. DAMN BORED I TELL YOU! I also not sure what I did in between but then in the end I fell asleep in the afternoon. WOO! FINALLY!

O! Now I remember. I was changing my blogskin til I got bored and went to lie down.
HOHOHO! I changed my blogskin! PRETTY RIGHT!

~~LET ME WHINE FOR A SECOND...~~

I HAVEN EAT... VERY HUNGRY... GAHHHHHHHHHHHH~

TMR IS MONDAY.... GOT TO WORK... RAWRRRRRRRRRR~

okay. done.

- it was nice hearing from you

P A T H

2010-05-08T23:06:00.003+08:00

I've been busy this few weeks, actually for the past entire month.

Tuition, Freelance, Internship... I managed to scheduled them in my LOVE SCHEDULER. Lots of things happened during those times and in the end, I was so depressed and lost that I lost all my confidence and will in life. I didn't thought of suicide though so it's not as bad as you thought. However, the feeling wasn't any better. Adding the pressure from my parents and different options from my peers and friends, I became desperate. I need a solution but dont know which one is the right one.

One Life. One Chance.

A phrase my friend likes. And it's really true. That's why I don't wanna waste my life. I wanted to choose something I wont regret.

As I procrastinate, I was offered to work full time. And I agreed.

And along the way, I realized that that was my plan all the while. I was fully aware of the low pay but he hired me without seeing my portfolio. I'm not an excellent designer and my skills are not even up to standard yet but he's willing to teach me everything he knows. Such an opportunity, seriously... in what position do I have the right to complain.

So I've decided. I will do my best in this company and hopefully grow with it. And to compensate the low pay, I can get some tuition to teach or some freelance/ part-time jobs.

Yes, I know its gonna be tough. But I know it's gonna be worth it.

I have an abnormally low self-esteem. So if there are times( definitely will be) when I lost my way along the lines, remind me that no success comes without hardships. And I will stand up and walk again.

Yup. That's what I've decided. Even if there are people who will disagree with my ways, I'm still gonna do it. Most likely I wont talk to you anymore. I don't need someone that is not supportive to bring me down. So for the time being, I'm sorry but stay away from me.

Sound harsh right. But then, I cannot take the risk. Cos I doubt myself more than anyone else. So to bring me down is like snapping one's fingers.

GODDDD.... I NEED STRENGTH! LOTS OF THEM PLEASE.

May I succeed. All the best to everyone out there too. Yes we can if we believe. :)

-this time, I'm in control.

2010-04-25T23:26:00.004+08:00

You painted my world

But left without completing it.

Should I erase it all or paint it myself?

Either way,

I know you're not coming back.

- my thoughts left unheard

i'm back!

2010-04-03T17:46:00.003+08:00

I'm back blogger! :)

okay... But I need to go off now. If not I'll be late for tuition.

When I get back, I'll tell you what happened yesterday!

SEE YOU LATER!

:D

2010-02-08T16:27:00.004+08:00

HELLOO!!!!

CAN YOU GUESS WHY AM I SO HAPPY?!!?!

nope. not because VIVA is over.
I think we still need to do a footage and burn in a cd.

so yea... guess it's still not over yet.

well... the answer is because

MY BROTHER BOUGHT ME A DSi yesterday!!

its kinda like my very very advance 20th birthday present.

I think its shared among my mum, bro and sis.

OMGGGGG!!
:D

I'm happy cause now I've got games to play!
And I'm not a hard-core gamer.

And of course there's games I wanna play.
LOTS OF THEM.

- what made you happy today?

love

2010-02-07T02:40:00.005+08:00

Watching you walk out of my life does not make me cynical about love but rather makes me realise that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.

-runawaytrain.tumblr

history

2010-02-04T18:38:00.005+08:00

It's funny how when we look back,

and we wonder why we did or say it.

I don't regret and wont.

When you were mine, you know.

We had it all in front of us
You were the one, I was in love
But you always hurt the one you lost
I couldn't get enough.

You were everything that's bad for me.
Make no apologies;
I'm crushed, black and blue
But you know I'd do it all again for you.

- We The Kings, "All Again For You"

- we both know...

my girlfriends

2010-02-03T01:42:00.003+08:00

I MISS MY GIRLFRIENDS!!!

I miss you Maggie Tay.

I miss you Tan Yi Hui.

I miss you Michelle Ng.

I miss you Teo Li Qin.

I miss you Zhang Yi Zhen.

I miss being young and fooling around.
Worried about exams and studying together.
Being clueless about fashion but still wanna get the same things just to tell the whole world that we are best friends even though it's obvious enough.
Always getting scolded by Maggie for being late or crossing the road without looking out for cars but still repeat those mistakes anyway.

I miss laughing with you girls about stupid things.

We may have grown up, made new friends and hardly contact each other.

But I know we are still the same group of crazy teenage girls.

Our friendship is the type of friendship that is gonna last even when we are old.
(I'm so gonna laugh at Maggie when we are old. Muhaha!)

Our friendship gave me hope in life.
Somethings I know its worth living for.
A type of strength.

- our bond never dies

disturbing

2010-02-02T18:20:00.003+08:00

yes. At this very moment, it's emotionally too disturbing.

But thanks to the invention of earpiece and iTunes.

I'll be fine.

thoughts

2010-02-02T17:44:00.005+08:00

What more can I say?

Since things turned out this way,

I guess there's really no turning back now.

A friend once told me:

Accepting that he could only be a friend now but,
you never know what will happen in the future.
May or may not get together.
Just stay close. That's the best now.

Now that I really thought about it.

We were never that close.

It was always for a small period of time.

And then you would leave me hanging there alone.

Everything I see and hear became too disturbing for me to handle.

Ignorance became my best friend.

I may not know what to do or where to go next.

But I'm aware of the feeling I have now.

I just need to make a final decision.

- because I know I deserve better

it's not over yet

2010-02-01T18:00:00.001+08:00

The deadline has passed.

The product has been submitted.

But it's still not over yet.

- freedom is near

every girl's dream

2010-01-31T17:15:00.002+08:00

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she’s quiet
Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls away
Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she’s beautiful

When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don’t say a word

When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she’s scared
Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn’t answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
Hold her’s and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does

When she says it’s over
she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything

- When she’s mad hug her tight and don’t let go

- When she says she’s ok don’t believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she’ll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

-Treat her like she’s all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she’s sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it’s stupid

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes

-When she’s bored and sad, hang out with her

-Let her know she’s important.

- Don’t talk about other girls around her

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
“Whose ass am i kicking baby?”

If you are lucky enough to meet someone like that, never ever let him go.

- prince charming

24 hours left

2010-01-31T17:00:00.000+08:00

Exactly 24 hours left til submission.

It also means ~~no sleeping~~ for tonight.

gahhhhh...

I hate this.

I love my sleep and I need my sleep.

Why do I feel like I'm in this situation alone again?

sighs.....

P.S. Bambi says: THIS MEANS WAR!!!!

-it will all be over soon

disgusted.

2010-01-31T01:07:00.002+08:00

Is my life a game to you? Everything is, isn't it?

I feel damn disgusted right now. And yes it's all thanks to you.

I have so much to say... but because its all coming out at the same time, so it's like....

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!

JUST _ OFF AND _!

- go away

heart-breaking

2010-01-29T16:24:00.004+08:00

It was heart-breaking.

I burst into tears and smeared my make-up.

As my cries became silent,

I dried my tears and told myself...

Save your heart
For someone that's worth dying for.
Don't give it away.
Torn apart
Never getting what you've been crying for.
It's always the same

upset

2010-01-28T20:11:00.003+08:00

I'm upset now.

'cause at this very moment, I should be happily rocking my night with

BOYS LIKE GIRLS

@ Sentosa, Resorts World Convention Centre

I HOPE THERE'S A BLACKOUT NOW AT SENTOSA!

SO THEY WILL POSTPONE THE CONCERT

AND I CAN GO AND SEE THEM!

- poor me is stuck at loft doing boring programming

Day 4

2010-01-28T12:58:00.003+08:00

I slept well last night.

Now it's time to work again!

- stitch bunny lion

wednesday night.

2010-01-27T22:47:00.004+08:00

All I can say is...

LET'S GET STARTED!

WORK WORK!!!!

- garfield plaster

tired.

2010-01-27T16:25:00.003+08:00

Thank god it's gonna be over soon.

It's just too disturbing.

Get me out of here...

- it saddens me alot.

LOFT@94.

2010-01-26T13:45:00.011+08:00

one word.

LOVE

love the environment. love the productivity of my progress.

P.S. I will give you lovely darlings some updates when I'm free. :)

- back to work

one week to go

2010-01-25T13:44:00.003+08:00

HATE is a strong word

but I really really DON'T LIKE

PROGRAMMING!

I'm left with exactly one week til deadline. Programming really sucks when you are suffering a ~~brain dead~~. Errors after errors. And what's worse? They don't tell you what's wrong. It's just WRONG! This sucks. LIFE SUCKS!

Damned if I do ya, Damned if I don't

- random and meaningless

hello blogger.

2010-01-24T17:15:00.004+08:00

I'M OFFICIALLY BACK!

I'll still use TUMBLR though, but I figured that some personal ~~BORING~~ ~~information~~ shouldn't be shared there. So I've decided to revive my blog again! :)

It's been a long time since I last blogged and countless things had happened til I don't know where to start...

Okay... how about...

Dear Blogger,

Many things had happened recently and its getting on my nerves. Well, mainly because my final year project-FYP is due on 1 February which is a week from now. And my progress?
UNKNOWN!
I can only have faith that I'll hopefully finish my project on time. I'll definitely give it my all now.

It's now or never!

Friends.
Of all times, it has to happen now. I'm bad at this... really bad at this kind of problem.
I've so many unfinished business to deal with.

She fell to the bottom of her life.
This wasn't meant for two.
She struggles to find herself in time,
But she can barely move.

She turns the pages everyday
Just to change the mood
But every chapter reads the same
It's so hard to make it through

This song. These lyrics. It felt like those words came from my heart. It was a living hell to me. It was emotionally disturbing to me. So much I couldn't stop my tears at a point of time. The most I could do was to pour out my feeling to those who were there for me.
But my heart remained closed and my lips remained sealed.

"Who could have understand?"

I asked myself that countless times. Its not that I don't trust my friends. But I was afraid. Cause I put myself in their shoes. And thought... I wouldn't understand and there's nothing I can do.

Why should I make them feel helpless? And what's the chance that they wouldn't change their impression of me? What's the chance of them not feeling disgusted or wanting to stay away from me?

I'll never know what are they really thinking. And I can't take this risk cause I know I cannot handle this blow. With all that had happened, I cannot take this blow.

I realized that the least I can do for myself is to be true to myself.

So to all the current problems I'm facing now...

It's nothing compared to the ones I had experienced alone.

P.S. To those who care,

I've fallen to the bottom of my life before.
And this isn't even close to the bottom.
So don't worry,
I'll be up and running in no time.
I just need time.

- I know my priorities

moving on.

2009-12-06T22:43:00.003+08:00

Hello!

I can literally hear an echo in this lifeless blog. If you are reading this,

WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU!? GET A LIFE!

lol. I'm kidding. I thank you for being here to stalk me.

xoxo I know you love me! ;)

anyway, I'm here because I'm feeling frustrated. about what? FLASH of course. What else.

VIVA on Tuesday. But that's not the main point.

The main point is... I gonna try using tumblr after my viva. HELL YEAH!

Alright. I seriously shouldn't be blogging now.

- say GOODBYE and HELLO TO THE END OF THE WORLD!

grumpy

2009-08-25T13:15:00.004+08:00

I'm in ~~school~~ and I'm not liking it one bit. Cause...

I'm still tired and school is draining even more energy from my fragile body.
I don't wish to see people I don't want to see.
I have tons of work to do but don't know where to start.
I have lots of planning to do.
I want to eat GOOD FOOD but I've no appetite at all.
I don't like the ~~EMO~~ room and I don't wanna be emo.
I'm stressed out.

Now you know why I'm unable to smile today.

- go away

my way of staying alive

2009-08-24T18:35:00.004+08:00

Anime. Manga. I don't think I'm considered as an otaku [Otaku (おたく/オタク) is a Japanese term used to refer to people with obsessive interests, particularly anime, manga, and video games.]. I would say they are my favorite pastimes. :D Maybe I just love stories. I don't know. I tend to be absorbed in every story I read. And when the story ends, I gives me an empty feeling. Something like an end of the road or rather like a cross junction where I have to pick another road to continue. Sounds emo huh? But yea.. I get those feelings. I don't hate them but I don't love them either. It's hard to describe cause it's contradicting. But those feeling makes me think a lot, may be reasons of life or matters that are similar to my life. Maybe I wanna find that perfect happy ending or beginning. Even if the storyline is always typical and expectable. I still continue til the end.

I don't know about others but I'm just assuming that people that do what I do are people who finds flaws in their life but is aware that fairytales don't happen in reality and that there's no chance it can be perfect the way we imagine them to be. They always say..

If there's a will, there's a way.

I personally feel this sentence is half correct cause will is not the only thing you need. Just like love. You can't just have love in your relationship and expect it to be perfect. Patience, compromise, goals, dreams, differences. All this are small parts. Love is just the natural necessary feeling to start or keep things moving forward. Not adding that love don't last forever. When two loving couples stay together for too long, it becomes a habit to have each other. It will be too long that they may thought it's love but it's actually not. Sometimes those habits become a responsibility.

But like I'm said these are my opinions. You may think I'm wrong. Someday in the future I may think that all these are wrong too. But for now, these are what I see, what I've experienced.

a broken family, a broken relationship, a broken friendship, a broken kinship. Lost, Hatred, Distrust, Burden, Betrayed, Abandoned, Lies... These are just words but not even close to describe the pain. If they so easily broken then what's the point in having them in the first place.

That's why I find my happy endings in stories. It's my way of healing the pain. This way, I won't lose my smile even if the tears wont stop flowing. :)

Smile and the world will smile back at you.
Cry and you will cry alone.

- so don't cry.

Automatic Loveletter

2009-08-22T22:59:00.068+08:00

I'm falling head over heels for this band.

"Eyes on you" and "Let it ride" are my current favorites!

WHAT ARE YOU STILL DOING HERE..

GO LISTEN! ;)

-spread the words

disappointment?

2009-08-22T00:27:00.005+08:00

What this feeling? Is it disappointment? Why do I get this weird sad feeling when he gave that reply. Was I expecting him to say yes? This can't be right. I shouldn't have this thought at all or anymore. Why is it that he still manage to say things that hurts. Why do I even get hurt by his words. There is no way I gonna fall in again. This time I'm strong enough to walk away.

No expectation. No disappointment.

P.S: This is not an emo post. haha!

CAMWHORINGBitching

2009-08-21T22:24:00.004+08:00

What can I say?

WE ARE GIRLS!! :D

- capturing precious moments with you

Mooncakes

2009-08-21T18:09:00.002+08:00

Just came back from an interview. It's a job at Raffles Hotel, selling mooncakes! :D
Recommended by shawn's friend. Currently there's me, tjang, calvin, pussyboy and terminator fong. Hopefully all five of us will be working together. :)

Don't know the details yet. Will be having a briefing session next Wednesday I think. haha!

The interview was short. We just had to fill in the form. Guess they really need people badly. Oh well, I need a job anyway.

After that we went window shopping at Raffles City. I was getting bored until I found a shop called prints! They sell stationery, lots of papers and files in all types of colors. Materials for making DIY stuff like diary, photo albums and cards..

Seriously has a fetish for stationery. Maybe it's connected to my dream job!
But what type of job get to be with all this wonderful stationery? Hmm....

- beautiful dreams

My Best Girl.

2009-08-20T22:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAMBI!

She just turned six! I almost forgot that today's her birthday. Time flies fast don't you think so? I can still remember the first day I met her. Six years has passed, it's sad to think that it will soon be that time.

But for now, I will continue to irritate, hug, bully, kiss, laugh at, praise, disturb, feed, teach, scold, play, walk, scare, trick, clean, bathe, call, tease, always be with and LOVE her.

- i love you always

SPRING CLEANING

2009-08-20T20:42:00.000+08:00

I spent half a day cleaning up my table. Well, it started when my mum kept nagging at me to wake up and vacuum the floor. I was reluctant at first because I was still in bed but got too frustrated with her nagging that I jumped out of bed, brushed my teeth and start vacuuming the floor.

I start with half of the living room first den my mum's bedroom. Usually I would vacuum the rooms first den the living room but this time its different, maybe I was too worked up or something. But it's still a start right? :)

After vacuuming my mum's bedroom, I proceed to my(& sis) study room. I saw the pile of junks on my table and around it. I got even more frustrated and thought, "Fuck it! Just clear up my table first." And I started clearing my table!

Throwing, arranging and more throwing. Okay, maybe not so much of throwing. While, clearing, I found many "treasures" and with those I realized I've got many things to do. Actually a lot of reading to do. I have got "the notebook", "marked", my comic books enough to last me for weeks.
I found my presents too. Body shop perfume for my 18th birthday from val, xueli and wendy. A birthday card written by Maggie Tay. A Stitch jigsaw puzzle(saw it a long long time ago but didn't buy it) for Christmas last year. An unexpected gift with ~~crazy cheesy~~ but sweet drawings on the wrapper. Anyway, when I've got the time, I will try to fix it. :)

Now I finally got a table but no table lights cause it spoilt and no one want to fix it. That's why I'm not fond of using it to study cause I can't see without strong light. And staring at my macbook's screen make it worse. Maybe I should go get a table lamp.

After clearing my table, I continued vacuuming the whole house. I wonder when did I stop having the feeling of cleaning up the house. Well, believe it or not, I used to like to randomly spent a day cleaning up the house. Maybe it's because I don't like it when my siblings start to expect me to initate and they don't contribute at all. It pisses me off. But it pisses me off too when the place is too dirty.

I like the feeling after the place is cleaned up!

- Good hygience habits

UP!

2009-08-19T23:15:00.000+08:00

went to watch the Pixar Animation UP!

AND I LOVE IT!

It's so funny, I laughed til and no sound came out.

one word.

Sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

but kinda fairytale. this kind of stuff don't exist.

Kevin, the boy named the bird is a female.
haha! that part is funny too.

SQUIRREL!

HAHA!!

I love the dog part can.... Damn funny..

POINT!

omg! this is LOVEEE!

LOL!

It's the CONE OF SHAME!

this part is funny too cause if you noticed...
the boy is there to assign the old man but
the old man is the only one pulling the house!

HAHAHAHAHA!!

I LOVE THIS SHOW!

I gonna watch it again! :D

- pictures are worth a thousand words

STUDY BUDDY!

2009-08-17T22:39:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIQIN!

PS US TODAY HUH! COS IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY SO THIS TIME LET YOU GO!
lol.

Went to Zhenghua CC's study room to study with TAN YIHUI! She got two papers. I don't have exams but need to do research so it's the same.

Halfway, we started to camwhore with my photobooth!! XP

yes.. with people around. It was kinda random but I LIKE! lol. We wanted to wait til Liqin to come den continue camwhore but that dog ps!

Then we continued with our work... After an hour or two, we started our usual girls talk!! haha!
Nostalgic.

At least this time we work first den gossip.

-gossip girls

DINNER with smiles

2009-08-16T22:07:00.002+08:00

Had dinner at Blk 163 with the girls except maggie. The dinner is an early celebration of TEO LIQIN's Birthday. We has a feast I would say. :D
After dinner, we went to plaza starbuck to sit and gossip. Maggie came later. We did the usual, talked and camwhored.

But it still as fun! :D

- for the birthday girl

subject: Science

2009-08-15T21:52:00.003+08:00

It was a beautiful afternoon and adding to the beautiful day, I went to the Science centre to view the Da Vinci exhibition with natalie, wendy, chenghao, shawn, calvin, goo, pussyboy and rider hui!

The last time I went to the science centre was primary six I think. And you know what?! I should come often! It's fun, seriously fun. There are many interesting science experiments and lots of things to see.

Okay, maybe not often, like once every few months? But I'm going there again soon cause I wanna see the iMax movie or something.

- Science = Fun

Jealousy

2009-08-13T20:00:00.003+08:00

Jealousy is a scary emotion don't you think so? It leads to lots of hatred and anger. And I don't like it one bit. But sometimes, ~~for a split second~~, I can't control not showing it.

HAHA!!! Looking back.. I think its funny. BECAUSE IT'S SO STUPID! LOL!

-WHERE'S THE TRUST!?!?

THE END OF CDP

2009-08-12T19:38:00.004+08:00

Had my VIVA today.. one word to describe how it went..

EXPECTED.

what else can I say?

只能怪自己没用。

- another disappointment

CURSE REPORTS

2009-08-10T23:59:00.007+08:00

It's one minute til midnight and I'm still rushing to finish my CDP REPORT!

I HATE REPORTS!

~~P.S: something is wrong with blogger. I can't see the toolbar or whatever you call that. It's frustrating because I cant do anything except for PLAIN TEXT. Stupid Blogger.~~

THANKS TO ANGEL I GET TO UPLOAD PHOTOS!

okay.. like I was saying... I had to rush my report and my dog, Bambi came to sit beside me. :)
Usually, she would already be sleeping in the AIR-CONDITIONED ROOM. If your room's air con is not on, she won't even move a muscle even if you call her a billion times. :/
GOOD LIFE RIGHT?!!

~~OMG!!! BLOGGER IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!~~
~~Now the add image function is not working! I clicked "UPLOAD" like a million times but NOTHING IS HAPPENING!!~~

-what's wrong with you!?

FINALLY!!!

Back to my story...

It's already midnight and BAMBI IS WITH ME! :D

I was so touched you know!!
I thought she knows that I won't be able to sleep tonight
so she's gonna keep me accompanied through the night.

But....

Look at the table..
That's my DINNER!
:/
Yeah.. She was just eye-ing for my food!
DAMN THAT DOG!
The minute I finished my food,
she straight away went to scratch the room's door
asking my mum to let her in.. -.-||
FAT FAT! XP

-all goes to nothing

FREEDOM!

2009-08-07T17:49:00.002+08:00

Finally I've got the time to change my blogskin. T.T

Submitted my CDP yesterday! Now all I'm left with is the VIVA next Wednesday and the CDP REPORT due on Tuesday... then FREEDOM IS MINE! :D

okay.. that's all for now. :)

P.S: 07-Ghost is nice.

fucking pissed off

2009-06-03T20:59:00.002+08:00

I'm fucking pissed off. FUCKING PISSED OFF! I can't believe how irresponsible can my sis be..

My iBall(a portable speaker for iPod) is spoiled. I dunno why or how it spoiled. I wanted to use it just now and realized that IT CANNOT EVEN SWITCH ON. I repluged and change power source and whatever I can think of. But it still couldn't switch on. So I called my sis(nobody was home) because she was the LAST person to use it. I let her use cause I'm always using my laptop. And yes, I remembered clearly that she would use them almost everyday since the day I let her use it.
okay.. I ask her what happen to my speaker, why can't I switch it on. She said she dunno and the last time she tried, she couldn't switch it on too. So I asked her when she realised it cant be switch on anymore. She replied one month or few week.

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? FEW WEEKS TO A MONTH AGO?

WHETHER ANOT SHE'S THE ONE WHO SPOILED IT.. WHEN SHE KNOW THAT SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH IT. SHE JUST LEFT IT THERE WITHOUT TELLING ME!

I did asked her why she didn't tell me about it. SILENCE is all I got. And then guess what she said...

"JUST GO REPAIR IT LA!"

And yes.. in a rude spoilt brat tone.

IF IT'S YOU! WOULDN'T YOU BE PISSED OFF TOO?

OBVIOUSLY AT FAULT.. DIDN'T EVEN ATTEMPT TO APOLOGISE.. AND STILL DARE TO ACT LIKE A BIG SHOT.

And you know what pissed me off even more? My mother came to me and say, "I'm not siding her..", " spoil then spoil lo.. go send for repair. I pay for it".

you call that not siding her? ya.. you are not siding. YOU ARE SPOILING HER as usual...

And you know what? Now that I think about it.. no wonder she stop using the speaker and use her ear piece or the desktop to blast her music.

CAN SOMEBODY GIVE ME A REASON WHY MUST I GIVE IN TO HER? SHOULDN'T I JUST SLAP HER OR THROW HER OUT OF THE WINDOW OR SOMETHING?

I wouldn't be called a murderer. I would even be thanked for removing GOD'S MISTAKE.

- a waste

WEEE~

2009-05-05T19:53:00.003+08:00

YES! I'VE FOUND A NEW BLOGSKIN! :D

maybe when I get home I will change it...

But for now I'm going to eat...

HUNGRY~

O.O

2009-05-05T19:28:00.004+08:00

Oh no!!!

I'm using chenghao's acer cause I didn't bring mine and I'm waiting for the guys to finish their games. But that's not the point. The point is that I'm using Google Chrome(similar to Internet Explorer) and I went to check out my blog and...

I REALISED THAT THE FONTS ARE FEAKING SMALL!

Well, Maggie and Yihui pointed out the problem before but I was using Firefox(which I personally feel its way better). And in Firefox, the fonts aint that small. pish~ (random new "word".. creative right?) And now I don't LOVE my blogskin anymore and I think I want to change it.

Another work load. =.=

I've already had entries in my draft waiting for me to complete editing. Well, ONE DAY I will edit them and post them all up! SO WAIT FOR ME! :)

Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion

2009-04-05T14:14:00.002+08:00

Lelouch Vi Britannia

I took 2 days to complete watching both seasons of Code Geass. GREAT ACCOMPLISHMENT! Though it's not as achieving as my 7 days of non-stop manga-ing or my 17 hours of sleep. *EVIL LAUGH*

Well, I started to watch this anime because....

LELOUCH IS SIMPLY WAY TOO GORGEOUS!
GAHHHH~

But frankly, this anime is really good. It has a mixture of both gundam seed and death note. Please do not be confuse like Chenghao. This anime doesn't have a notebook(death note) that can kill robots(gundam) by writing the name of the robot. I would never watch it if the story was this lame. Anyway...

Here's the plot from wiki:
The series is set after Japan's conquest by the Holy Britannian Empire on August 10, 2010, a.t.b. with their powerful new robot weapons, the Knightmare Frames, stripping Japan and its citizens of all rights and freedoms and renaming them Area 11. The titular Lelouch is an exiled Britannian prince, who vows to destroy his father, the Emperor, and Britannia, and gains the ability through the mysterious power of the Geass, becoming the leader of the resistance movement and the Black Knights to fulfill his two wishes: to seek revenge for his mother and to construct a world in which his beloved sister Nunnally can live happily.

I love this twist in the story and its definitely not the happy ending type. The war and conflicts, who is right or who is wrong? Because everyone is different. Thus with different believes, different fate and different destiny, one's action is being judged. It's a sin to kill right? And it's not a sin to protect. But to protect, one must kill the other. So was it wrong or right to kill?

Lelouch is rather pitiful. To change the world, he shouldered all the responsibilities and sins. In return, he lost everything for a peaceful world. I still think it's too much for him to die as a bad guy. But for all the killing, he aint a good guy either..

Okay... too much contradictions. My mind cannot take it. :/
Anyway, the robots are damn cool! if only such thing exist.. but then if it does, then the world would be different. Such machine are designed to kill. It's better of left in the fantasy world.
I shall end it here..

ALL HAIL LELOUCH!

vexed..

2009-03-21T00:09:00.004+08:00

I FEEL LIKE BLOGGING BUT I CAN'T!!!!

because...

I FORGOT WHAT I WANTED TO WRITE

ABOUT!!!!

just awhile ago, many MANY thoughts were running through my mind. But out of the sudden...

POOF!

ALL GONE!!!!!!

and now I'm feeling so down.
maybe sleeping helps.

- i'm really down

this aint fine..

2009-03-11T21:37:00.001+08:00

A world she could not understand.
A problem she could not solve.
A trap she could not escape.
A pain she could not stop.
A fate she could not change.

-nothing left

THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS

2009-03-11T01:02:00.014+08:00

THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS

YES! On Tuesday, 10 March 2009, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus ROCKED Downtown East D'Marquee.
I rushed down to Compass Point after tuition just to realize that THEY HAVE ALREADY LEFT!
who are they?

Chun Leng, Joey, Calvin
IT'S THEM!

Joey msged everyone asking us to meet at compass point at 6.45pm..
I took bus to Clarke Quay and reach there at 6.45pm..
Calvin msged me and told me, "meet you there."
I asked, " Whr?" He replied, "reach then call."
So I asked them to go eat first. And when I reached and called, he said they were on their way there. -.-
Adding to the frustration, Compass Point has got a DEAD taxi stand. Clearly the sign wrote "TAXI STAND". BUT the whole road was infested with parked/waiting cars. And when I saw a taxi, it turned the other direction. F***! WHAT'S THE BLOODY SIGN FOR?!

anyway, I RAN AFTER A CAB! And the taxi driver drove at 60km/hr! FREAKING SLOW! DAMN HIM! In the end it cost me 11 bucks. @.@

met THEM, yes.. the 3 musketeers who left.
went in D'Marquee. The opening band sucks. seriously.. I couldn't catch a single word he sang and he screams for 2 secs only, might as well don't scream. And it's a Singapore Band. -.-

AND THEN RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS CAME OUT at like 9pm. shldn't have took the cab. If I took the bus I'm still considered early. :/
RONNIE, the lead singer, WAS AWESOME! HIS VOICE, HIS SCREAMS... WOO~ *SCREAM*

I think he's the only LONG-HAIRED GUY I can accept.

He tied up his hair when he was singing " YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL"!
I have always dream to hear him sing that song LIVE.
And I can say that.. I'm not disappointed.
His voice touched my heart. :D

well, you must be wondering why are the photos overexposed. Because handphone cameras are not good enough! I cant believe I forgot to bring my digicam! I COULD HAVE TAKEN CLEAR PICTURES OF HIM!

At the end of the concert. The lead guitarist SMASHED HIS GUITAR!!! COOL! The drummer threw drum sticks. Then they left. Some random guys came out to pack the stuff. They threw stuff that they don't need anymore... including extra drum sticks, papers, bottled water, CDs and...

RONNIE'S SUNGLASS!!!!
I want that!!! But I dint get it cause I'm on the left and the guy threw towards the right side. -.-

And then we were chased out. After walking around, we finally decided to eat SUBWAY!
The person only allow us to take away cause they were closing. But we ate there anyway. XD
After eating, we took bus to Compass Point. Chun Leng walked home from there. Joey and Calvin got no bus home. In the end, Calvin's brother is gonna drive him home and give Joey a ride to some bus stop to catch his last bus. As for me, I called my dad to send me home.
Meanwhile....

So blur.. Calvin's lousy camera skill! :x

MY DEAREST FRIEND, MK just told me that I could actually meet up with them if I waited at the back of D'Marquee. OH MAN!!! NOW THEN TELL ME! >.<

But at the end of the day,

I ENJOYED MYSELF! :D

- my love for your music

TOM AND JERRY

2009-03-09T13:53:00.004+08:00

had dinner with my dad as usual.
there was a fair or something like that by ntuc,
and I saw...

TOM AND JERRY DVD!
guess how many episodes are there...

FREAKING 142 EPISODES!

one word. AWESOME! :D

- favorite childhood

immature

2009-03-09T10:41:00.005+08:00

WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU! early in the morning kao simi bei. Are you not aware that there is still one more person SLEEPING! OMG! talk loudly nevermind. ARGUE ABOUT UNREASONABLE ISSUES. WTF!

"...that time saturday can go see doctor. you rather go out with THAT MAN!"

FUCK MAN! She go out with who need your permission meh? Who are u? the daughter or the mother. and see doctor leh.. YOU PREGNENT meh? or GOT CANCER? IT'S JUST A FUCKING COLD! How bad can your cold be? Does it make you so dizzy that you cannot walk? STILL CAN WALK RIGHT? And she even let you go see a private doctor. CANNOT GO BY YOURSELF MEH? you are bloody FIFTEEN going on sixteen. cannot take care of yourself meh?
And you still got the cheek to blame her. WHAT ABOUT THE OTHER TIME when she ask you to skip school so that you can accompany her to the polyclinic? DID YOU KNOW THAT SHE WAS REALLY ILL that she kept going to the toilet to vomit? Her head was spinning so much that she cannot even walk or breathe properly. How did I know? Cause she woke me up and waking me up isn't an easy task! imagine how loud she was vomiting.. AND YOU? you just simply DON'T CARE. Don't act like you really want to go to school to study. If my class wasnt important, I wouldn't hesitant to go. SO WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM?

And the other day when you suddenly said something like,

"you and him got problem don't involve me."

and then you started crying.. WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU? I agree with what kor kor said.

"eh.. like my sister going through some hard times."
we LOL though.

seriously.. its not a big deal. it's her life. she has the right to find her own happiness. whether he's just a friend or not. whether you approve of her ways of handling a relationship or not, the least you could do is stand by her and lend her a hand or a listening ear when she needs it.

Grow up la. Stop thinking about yourself. Don't treat her for granted.

- for your own good

Girlfriends

2009-03-08T17:19:00.006+08:00

at the back of bus 190

went to eat astons specialities at THE CATHAY yesterday with the girls.

spent 18 bucks on cab fare ~~'cause I was late.~~ :/
though I was late, we still had to queue for more than an hour for a seat!
By the time we got a seat, it was already nine. We still had to wait for another 20 minutes for the food to be serve.
one word. HUNGRY!

after eating, we went home. and in the 190 bus.. out the sudden we were CAM-WHORING at the back! LAUGHS! a bunch of crazy girls in their own world. the people around us were like dead corpses.. their faces were totally expression-less.

GREAT DAY!

- forgotten

miserable at best

2009-03-07T15:19:00.003+08:00

I can live without you.
But without you I'll be miserable at best.

Taylor Swift

2009-03-06T19:03:00.003+08:00

Taylor Swift guest stars in CSI Season 9 Episode 16: Turn, Turn, Turn.
She plays a girl named Haley Jones whose parents run a seedy Las Vegas motel where a series of murders happens. Over the course of a year, Haley goes through a series of changes that have tragic consequences.

I LOVE her Gothic/bad girl look. :D

- she dint have to die

Batman

2009-03-05T21:10:00.002+08:00

went Bugis with Natalie and Wanxin yesterday.
Nat called me at noon but I was still asleep ~~obviously~~..
Thanks to Chenghao, I managed to reached there as fast as I could. :D

SPOTTED at Topshop!
It was LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT!
but it bloody costs SEVENTY-THREE DOLLARS. *faints*
maybe when I get my pay if I still remembers or if it's not ~~OUT OF STOCK~~
I WILL BUY IT! I think..

-money makes the world go round

childhood dreams

2009-03-03T22:32:00.002+08:00

two rainbows; double happiness

today is my first time being a paid teacher.
at first i thought that it would be difficult for me to communicate with her cause she was really shy. But it dint take her long to start talking to me. And she talks too fast..

oh, did i mention that she's from Taiwan so I have to speak to her in Chinese!!
my B3 Chinese still can make it.. at least she understands me. XD
There were MANY times when she goes on telling me about her stories, I ~~lost~~ her at her second sentence! XD
I was forced to end her stories by saying, "O.... Hmm... Okay.. let's continue! :)".
MAGGIE DID THAT TOO... she's far worse. She would give those BLANK STARES. serious.

Overall, it turned out great!
One of my earliest dreams was being a teacher.
I think I was six when my kindergarden teacher, Ms Tay
(I called her TEH-O.. can't believe I was so lame.)
asked me, "What would you want to be when you grow up?" And there were two occupations in my mind. One of them was to be a ~~teacher~~.. but i didn't choose that.
I chose to be a......

MOTHER

and the whole class started laughing at me. >.<

hey YOU.. stop laughing okay. I was only six.. AND NOBODY TOLD ME THAT BEING A MOTHER IS NOT A JOB!
Ms Tay even told my mum about it. -.-

random
how can she destroy my dream like that... later my shugo chara/would-be self becomes an X Egg HOW? or a X Character? HOW!?

Next tuition: Thursday, 5 March'09

- see you

HOLIDAYS

2009-02-28T00:34:00.005+08:00

fresh in hand by *ssilence

finally, the holidays are here...
there are so many things I want to do... and that include NOTHING.
But I'm not gonna waste this two months like I did last sem.
THIS MONTH.. I'M GONNA WORK, PLAY AND SLEEP LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW!

however, the depressing part is...
I have to do EXTRA housework and if I'm working, I have to give my mum HALF of my pay AND pay for my expenses. So at the end of the day, I'm left with a ~~little savings or nothing~~.

well, it's not that I mind doing the housework or giving my mum half of my pay. I will do it anyway. But it's a little ~~depressing~~.
IT'S A HOLIDAY.. I want to go out and play not stay at home and do the chores all day. I wanna use my hard-earned money to buy stuff that I want.

oh well, I can't be selfish and not think about my mum.

BE A MAN. DO THE RIGHT THING.

- happy holidays

gonna be okay..

2009-02-16T01:59:00.003+08:00

friends by `ssilence

I'm sorry. It's all that I can say.
I will change but I don't think that can make you change what you have decided.
It hurts but I'm alright now.

- I have lost a friend.

new skin!

2009-02-15T02:36:00.007+08:00

a day without rain by `ssilence

new blogskin! :)
i think i'm gonna be stuck with this skin for a long long time...

i'm most probably gonna write a post... tomorrow.
depends on my mood. :D

- smile

nobody's home

2009-02-10T23:57:00.004+08:00

" a love story " by *Floriandra

Her feeling she hides
Her dream she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's fallen behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's fallen from grace
She's all over the place

some things are better left unsaid ;
things nobody will ever understand.

- I know I wanna run away,
If only I could run away...

give up

2009-02-01T00:32:00.006+08:00

i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up. i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.i give up.

I give up on you, you and YOU. I give up on this, this and THIS. I give up on that, that and THAT. I give up on everything that are related to you(s).

you turned my world upside down.
you drive me crazy.
and YOU break me apart.

and plus everything else that is happening.... i just feel like i'm breaking apart.
so i'm giving up on you(s)..

i can never depend on you because...
i'm having doubts about you.

Are you wearing a mask?
i wonder if i'm blinded by the truth.
i wonder if i was wrong about you.

-all of you

2009-01-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

i don't like chinese new year.

this year's cny is worse than i had imagine.
something is wrong with my stomach. dunno what's wrong but just don't feel well.
its like having diarrhoea just not painful but still feel very uncomfortable.

imagine feeling like that for the ENTIRE DAY...

and this morning....
I had gastric pain. freaking painful.

the weird thing is i did eat the night before.
i was woken up by the pain. rolled around, walked around but still as painful..
last resort.. i ate panadol with warm milo.
it took awhile but i fell back to sleep by then.

woke up to eat lunch... in the end stomach ache.. went to the toilet... sleep again.
woke up. eat dinner. watch tv.
sighed.. what a boring day...

- should i see a doctor?

family

2009-01-11T17:04:00.002+08:00

why is it so difficult for us to just live happily peacefully together? why must all our conversation include him and money?

it's always about money and revenge. nothing else matters to you.

you said we were your life, but u said you regretted having us.

you said we are the only thing you have left, but you said you have never trusted us.

you said we don't understand you, but you've never tried to understand us.

you said we will abandon you in the future, but you are the one pushing us away to him.

you contradicted yourself so many times that I'm having doubts.

looking at his family, can't help but feel envious of their happiness.
Am I being too greedy to want a family like his...

- she just want...

This is an EMO post.

2008-12-12T20:16:00.002+08:00

I'm posting an Emo post today.

Why?

I can't finish my 3GA. And I have to go to school tomorrow while everyone is out there PARTYING THEIR ASS OFF. *GOO just laughed at me saying that he is one of them.
My 3 weeks holiday is a GONER. Packed with assignments = no time to work = no money to spend = ~~lonely Christmas~~( okay the last one is not linked together. )
I'm so tired now because of... CHENGHAO LA! DON'T LET ME SLEEP!
I went to Facebook and realized how much I miss my GIRLS. >.<
Someone said I have a ~~DOUBLE CHIN~~. Very sad, really very very very emo.
Last time they say I've got no chin. @.@

-I'm an unloved emo kid.

help me!

2008-12-09T00:46:00.002+08:00

went to school today even though its a PUBLIC HOLIDAY!

M-M-A~ *sighed*

BUT THANKS TO

bryanGOO and ZIEG!

I managed to finish the two toilet bowls. Well, I know they're not very nice looking but they look like toilet bowls right...? That's good enough.
And I can't waste too much time on them. I've still got much more to do.

Personally, I like this better. maybe cause I contributed more in this than the other one. :x

what can I say? without zieg, my basic shape wont even be out. :/

THANK YOU ZIEG! :)

THE PAST

3DM ASSIGNMENTS.

assignment 01 - cessna skylane

assignment 02 part 01 - hand

VALERIE taught me alot of stuff okay!! though i redo but she helped me alot!

THANKS VAL!

well, I got help and advices from many people..
GOO, Melvin, Natalie and Gerald...
(did I missed out anyone else?)

I'm worried about my RIA!
CAN ANYONE TEACH ME PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

- help help HELP

2008-12-07T14:51:00.003+08:00

A Manga Made Me Cry.

okay.. time to get back to work!

byebye!

alcohol

2008-12-06T00:02:00.002+08:00

GOSH!

I think I'm abit drunk. I wont say I like this feeling but its different.
I still don't like the bitterness of alcohol though. :/

It's being so long since I last had this feeling. I can't even compare which is worse.

oh well, if I have time tomorrow, I might update my blog.

So stay tuned... and leave a tag.
( its kind of depressing to see no one tagging me. its like no one reads my blog. :/ )

- just another day

2008-12-04T19:35:00.002+08:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

ORAN EXTENDED THE DEADLINE AGAIN

to NEXT FRIDAY!

I'm so GLAD cause....

I CAN SLEEP! *.*

finally...

- eyebags @.@

2008-12-03T19:05:00.001+08:00

I forgot to post this.

this is a very SAD photo.

- don't get it then nevermind

maya maya maya

2008-12-03T17:52:00.003+08:00

I've one good news, one bad news, one worse news...

GOOD NEWS is...

I HAVE SUBMITTED S.A.D.
like finally..

BAD NEWS is...

IT'S CONSIDERED LATE!
I think... unless he hasn't check yet. *PRAY*

WORSE NEWS is....

I HAVE TO COMPLETE MY HAND TODAY
&
START DOING MY 3GA STATIC MESHES!

I dunno what to type already.

-back to work

MAYA DAY

2008-12-03T10:33:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna mark this day as

"MAYA DAY"

LOOK AT WHAT STRESS MADE ME BECOME...

random

anyway, my S.A.D. presentation just ended.
Well, he dint really said anything bad but I know he can tell that we are unprepared.
and for that..... MY GRADESSSS...

this module makes me so SAD.

now I have to rush my report til 1pm or it will be considered ~~LATE~~.

BE RIGHT BACK...

- this is just the beginning

times like this

2008-12-02T01:02:00.005+08:00

I'm pissed off because every time I win in talking REASONS with you..
you ALWAYS either use:

- not happy then fuck off to your dad

or

- not a word from you

and you ALWAYS take her side especially when she's in the wrong.

whatever man. not like I'm jealous or anything but it just pissed me off.
look at what she has become and I believe there's more to come.

you yourself said she has an attitude problem BUT you never want to do anything about it except for ways that only makes her defies you more.

she will then complain to her friends and her friends will comfort her. Then she will think that her friends understands her and are more important to her. BLAH BLAH..

BEING THERE DONE THAT

nevermind. even if I warn you a million times, you will just find ridiculous reasons to bring me down. so why do I even try. the result will always be the same anyway.
She's got a brain and she can think for herself. The only problem is when is she gonna use it.

but sometimes she just gets on my nerves.
her serious rude attitude, tone and behavior like totally ignoring you when you ask her a question POLITELY.

e.g.

me: when is your exam coming?
her: ....
I ask her about 2 or 3 times but still no answer.
me: oie.. talking to you. are u dumb?
her: why do you care?

TELL ME IF I'M WRONG TO BE PISSED OFF.
I was just asking out of concern and I get an answer like that.
BUT SHE IS RIGHT! why should I care?
And I did. I didn't give a damn anymore.

And when she ask me questions about her work or something, she would ask properly.
And if I dun remember or dunno, I said dunno right?
her face goes back to the "JL" face.
serious. It's like instantly, no second thoughts.
after that you ask her questions, she would ignore like she didn't hear.

WOULD YOU WANNA HELP A PERSON THAT GIVE YOU AN ATTITUDE LIKE THAT?

another issue that I will never ever forget.

sharing of things. let's talk about BAGS.
I lend her bags if I'm not using them. But she on the other hand always says no unless I lent her mine on that day then she will say okay. I'm fine with it. I don't really need it anyway.

BUT I admit I always says no if she wanted to borrow my crumpler bag.

REASON: it means something to me and I treasure it.

I'm willing to lend her any bag except for that only one.
WHY IS IT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND?
I don't use her expensive perfume that her friend bought for her. NOT like she would agree to anything anyway.

I meant that there are things that you treasure a lot and wont wanna share it or something right?

She said no like 99% of the times and when I tell her that, she would always say til like she always said yes and drag out times when she asked if she could borrow my crumpler and I always say no.

SHE JUST CANT GET IT IN HER HEAD.

whatever. If I'm selfish then what makes you?

I wouldn't say I've never "attitude" her before. But I would dare say that I've never throw temper, give "JL" faces or rude attitude towards her for no reasons.

SHE?
she even dares to do it towards my mum and wont get punish and instead my mum will try to give in to her.
WHAT DO YOU THINK?

HERE I'm rushing my S.A.D. assignment, and there she's trying to create trouble.

GREAT.

the world is fair.

at this point of time I really really hope that it's true.

- i do not owe you and neither did you.

eyebags + @.@

2008-11-30T10:36:00.002+08:00

3 ASSIGNMENTS due next week.

SAD due on Wednesday.

3DM (Hand) due on Thursday.

3GA due on Friday.

and I haven submit my RIA. @.@

-somebody save me

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2008-11-29T18:17:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

NATALIE!

She is the reason why I'll have so many ~~UNGLAM~~ photos!
But I've got a couple of UNGLAM photos of HER too! XP

THANKS TO NATTY!
1M04've got many memorable photos to look at. :)
o.. VIDEOS TOO!

NATALIE IS OFFICIALLY 18 TODAY!

But she hurt her leg/foot/ankle, not sure which one BUT
the main point is that she cant walk much SO
she cant go out and have FUN. :/

NATTTYYYYY GET WELL SOON! :)

- special day

KNNBCCB DAY

2008-11-23T20:51:00.007+08:00

i'm feeling so stressed up! too many things to do and i seriously don't know if i can complete them in time. just look at my schedule!

okay. i'm too lazy to take a photo, send to my com and blah blah.
so i used my photo booth instead. thus, resulting in this mirror thingy that i don't care about because the details aren't the main point.

did I&E the whole day. video editing SUCKS! i totally forgot what i've learnt in AVFE.
( DAVID MUSTN'T KNOW.. EVERR @.@)
anyways, searching, downloading, converting took too much time. Not adding, in between i brought Bambi down and help my mum buy her 4D.

DAMN... i was already getting impatient.

SO.... I went to de-stress myself by playing...

THE LEGENDARY....

D.O.T.A.

doesn't it sounded cooler?
okay. maybe not.

MY BEST RECORD FOR WINDRUNNER SO FAR....

HOWEVER....

APPLE + ALT + ESC = Back To Work

THEREFORE....

Happy + Back To Work + Hungry = STRESS x 2

nevermind. whatever. fuck it. _|_

- back to square one

2008-11-23T12:27:00.002+08:00

OH NO!!!

DON'T DIE BLOG!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

but I'm lazyyyy... How?

- and life goes on without you

2008-11-16T18:44:00.001+08:00

love her songs ; love her dress ; love her music video ;
love her.

that special day

2008-11-15T10:43:00.003+08:00

08 NOVEMBER 2008

Finally, I'm 18! :)
It's been three years since I last had a wonderful birthday.
THANKS TO ALL MY FRIENDS, this year is gonna be one of the most memorable day.

Before the clock strike twelve, MAGGIE, YIHUI and LIQIN came to my house to give me a surprise. Although I kind of know already, BUT I'm still super duper HAPPY! :D
:) Got a dress (I'm gonna wear it when I go out with MICHELLE later) from YIHUI, a top that fits me perfectly from LIQIN and 'THE NOTEBOOK' that I was searching high and low for from MAGGIE.
random- my bro and sis got me a silver bag ; my mum gave me ($.$)
They bought me a swiss roll cake or something and a pie! YUMMY!

THANK YOUUUU! :)

After they went home, I went to..... sleep of course and woke up at noon I think. My lunch was a feast. My mama cooked all my favorite food. :D

Stupid Flu or cold or whatever virus caused me to sleep through my afternoon. And at around evening, chenghao came and we went to xian han's house to wait for xian han and jia ren.
We went to sheng siong to buy the ingredients and then met up with goo, shawn and calvin at xian han's hse. Chenghao went to pick valerie, xueli and wendy. We started preparing when natalie came. She was holding a super big STITCH and my face brighten up when I first lay my eyes on it. :D
okay.. its getting boring. Fast forward ->

- the girls came
- the boys except goo and calvin were in the kitchen cooking
- the girls slacking in the living room ; eating chips and watching Tom and Jerry and Disturbia.
- Food ready. Chenghao, calvin and shawn watched their manU vs arsenal match while the rest EAT.
- ICE CREAM for desert
- CAKE! the cake was super nice. After every mouth, there will be a chocolate taste left lingering in the mouth. woo~ get me?
- OPEN PRESENT! BIG STITCH from natalie, shawn, calvin, goo, and andy. Body shop perfume from valerie, xueli and wendy. AND if you remembered my 01 october post, I thanked chenghao. That's cause he bought the pullover that I wanted from genting!!!! :D
- Went home.

okay! my 18th birthday ended with me going to bed exhausted! :D

THANK YOU ALLL!
to those we wished me 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY'
thank youuuuuuu.

I LOVE YOU ALL! <3

2008-10-28T12:39:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

MY BIG BROTHER, ISAAC!

SISTER SHAWN!

-when it all begins

Tinkerbell and pixie dust

2008-10-18T04:30:00.003+08:00

watch "Tinkerbell" the movie.

Tinkerbell is Peter Pan's fairy if you know the story, Peter Pan. It is a 3D animation and it's really good. The cast of voices also include Jesse McCartney and Lucy Liu. This movie has a beautiful story and a meaningful moral behind it. It made me smile. :)
So, watch it. I highly recommend it.

That's all for now.
More updates tomorrow.

The Notebook <3

2008-10-05T01:42:00.007+08:00

I'M NOT GONNA UPDATE!
I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!

okay. just kidding. :P

I can't tell you how bored I am right now!

Last night, I watched two movies at watch-movie.net...

CLOSING THE RING

&&

THE NOTEBOOK

well, "Closing The Ring" was okay. THE TEDDY GUY IS SO HOT. :)
and "The Notebook"...

GOSH! I LOVE IT SO MUCH I'M GONNA GET THE BOOK! It's by...

Nicholas Sparks

He wrote "A Walk To Remember" too! :)
It's been so long since I really want to read. When I was in secondary school, I used to be crazy over "FEAR STREETS". SERIOUS! I love the mysteriousness and the twist. :)

There's this book. I forgot the title but its also Fear Street. It's like the very beginning of Fear Street. The Fear family. yeah, something like that. The second book was so touching that I actually cried. The description was so detailed I could imagine the whole scene and stuff.
Don't you think its very incredible? As an author, you are not only able to paint the scenes in your reader's mind. But also make them feel exactly how you want it to be. I think its better than getting an award. :)

okay.. back to the movie, The Notebook.

They won the Best Kiss award in 2005

THEY ARE REAL COUPLES! How sweet can that get? They split for a few months before and now they are back together again! I think...

BUT DON'T YOU THINK RYAN GOSLING (the lead actor) IS TOO HOT!?
and Rachel McAdams is so like those crazy, fun-loving girl and she's pretty!! :D

Oh man! Call me crazy. I call this LOVE! :)
LOVE?!?! -.-| I dint get that too. nevermind. :P

I'm so bored. I wanna read. Oh man! :(

Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone.

-Noah
(The Notebook)

to BFF :)

2008-10-04T00:12:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HO CHENGHAO! :D

My favorite teacher

2008-10-02T00:14:00.002+08:00

MISS MICHELLE IS NOW MRS CHOO!! :D

she's like the

BEST TEACHER IN THE WORLD!

She left to get her Masters in Melbourne in 2004.
And after two years -2006,
SHE GOT IT! :)

Now she's getting her PHD! And will complete by 2010.

And on sunday, 28.09.2008
SHE'S MARRIED! :D

The sad thing is... she's staying in Melbourne for good.
But she's happy! And that's all that matters. :D

anyways,
WISHING HER AND HER HUSBAND
HAPPILY EVER AFTER. :)

-wedding bells

just another regular post.

2008-10-01T21:55:00.006+08:00

SPECIAL SECTION FOR BFF HO CHENGHAO!

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THANK YOU! :)
when the time comes I will tell you guys! :P

I NEED SOME ADJUSTMENTS! If not I will DIE when school reopens.
I tried to sleep at 1am BUT I couldn't and ROLL AROUND MY BED TIL 6AM! zzzzz

I figured I can't sleep anyway, so I GOT HOOKED ON BLEACH AGAIN! :D
~~30 over episodes~~ and I finished last night. :)

Chenghao came back from Genting already. SO WE WENT SUPPER! :D
ROTI PRATA.. with MUSHROOMSSSS! XD

When we came back, we chat abit about his trip and his weird hotel room :/
~~BUT THAT IS NOT THE POINT!~~
While we were talking about creepy stuff... I NOTICED AN OLD LADY WALKING UP AND DOWN. well, that's not the weird part. The weird part is SHE APPEARED FROM NO WHERE!!
but she disappeared into block 507. I figured its where she lives.
Then it was about 6.30am already so I decided to go home. I opened the door and step out. As I turned my head, THE OLD LADY WAS RIGHT BESIDE ME!!!! She slowly walked pass me and I slowly got back into the car with a TOTALLY FREAKED OUT FEELING!
CREEPY FREAKY! But I got home safely anyway. :/
SHE'S A REAL OLD LADY! I wondering if she was STALKING me! okay, I'm kidding. :P
BUT MAYBE PERHAPS PROBABLY MIGHT BE true right? :x

-sleep-

I woke up at about 1pm. AWFULLY EARLY RIGHT? That's because I WAS IN PAIN! And the culprit was the irritating sickening EVIL....

~~MENSTRUATION~~

Yes, the evil one that bring nothing but PAIN and TROUBLE.
DON'T YOU AGREE GIRLS!?!

SICKENING~

anyway, my kind neighbor gave us some of their cooking for lunch. :)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA! :D

An unpleasant thing happen today. I don't really wanna talk about it though so I will just summarize everything. I had a fight with my mum and got a slap I didn't deserve. But I thought it through and I'm okay already.
A friend once said:

everything is fair in this world.

well, I have not find my balance but if this is true then there's still hope. That's how this sentence made me feel. It also made me think of the positive stuff. So it's all good. :D

watch this! :)

recommended by bryanGoo.

-SHAWN IS LAME!

random thoughts

2008-09-28T23:50:00.005+08:00

hello people. I'm very sad. Can you tell?

yes. I'm very sad.

WHY?

because I have got no money. Isn't that SAD ENOUGH!?

yes. I know. I'm very sad too. X'(

MY "NEED" LIST

1.

IPOD NANO RED

SONY PSP RED

ABBEY DAWN COLLECTIONS! :D

DOOPERDOO CLOTHES

TOKIDOKI

BAG/ CLOTHES/ STUFFS

SHOES
sneakers/slippers/heels/flats

hints: my 18th birthday is coming. :D

NO MONEY! :(

FRIENDS FOR SALE!

under affiliates.

FEEL FREE TO PICK!
PRICES NEGOTIABLE.
:D

Girls have tattoo means bad? Its ART. How can Art be bad right? Well, because of this picture, everyone have been asking and they seemed surprised. Does it really give a bad impression? How can you judge a person based on such stuff. Its the same as judging the person by the looks, isn't it? Maybe I'm just having a crush on tattoos but no one can tell the future right? :/

“Why should I care what other people think of me?
I am who I am. And who I wanna be.”
-Avril Lavigne

new blogskin

2008-09-28T01:27:00.007+08:00

Finally, a new blogskin. I simply love the previous one. :D

Well, I still keep it. In case I ever want it back. :)
I seriously wanna learn how to create blogskins. But it's like learning another language.
And without a teacher makes it impossible. :/

I couldn't give a damn what you say to me
I don't really care what you think of me
cause either way you're gonna think what you believe
there's nothing you could say that would hurt me

- I can do better

MASSIVE UPDATE

2008-09-24T22:51:00.009+08:00

okay people. this is what you have been waiting for...

MASSIVE UPDATE

hey, 200++ photos. I don't even know where to start. And adding to the fact that all the photos are from photobucket, which I seriously feel that it is not user-friendly, and the ridiculous amount of HTML codes that I have to copy and paste is just going to kill me.
BUT if I don't update, I will also be murdered by

MONSTERS WHO ARE HUNGRY FOR MY MASSIVE UPDATE. :P

okay. let's just start with what I can remember...

AVRIL'S CONCERT

went to AVRIL LAVIGNE's CONCERT on 7 September 2008
with my girlfriend - MAGGIE TAY.

well, photos are with her and she posted them on her blog already. So if you are interested, you can drop by her blog, the first link under affiliates.

AVRIL'S CONCERT WAS A BLAST!
THE BEST DAMN TOUR INDEED! :D

I'm so crazily in love with her now. SHE ROCKS! XD

PEOPLE! IF HER CLOTHING LINE - ABBEY DAWN
ever comes to Singapore. PLEASE SUPPORT OKAY!
at least I will. :P

ROCK ON AVRIL! :)

MAGGIE'S BIRTHDAY BBQ

MAGGIE TAY IS OFFICIALLY EIGHTEEN ON 8 SEPTEMBER 2008

known this black bitch since we were thirteen.
she wasn't BLACK that time but she was still a bitch. :x

exclusive: UNGLAM-ness of MAGGIE TAY :P

GENTING TRIP

10, 11, 12 September 2008
went genting with natalie, valerie, chenghao, bryanGoo, calvin, xianhan, andy and berenice.

DAY 1 - 10.09.2008

well, I was late so I took a cab down. the taxi uncle was very kind. He sped to cck cause he knew I was late. I was lucky too cause it was green light all the way. :)

ALL ON BOARD and we were on our way :)

everything was fine until we were on our way up. the bus was turning and turning and turning. IT MADE ME DIZZY and I almost puked. It was damn uncomfortable. But luckily I didn't puke. :)

We reach genting early so we have to wait til 3pm then we can book in our hotels. So we slack around, play DS/PSP to pass the time.

Time to BOOK IN. three rooms were next to each other but only two can join. so the guys took the two joinable rooms.

our room

after putting our stuff down, we went to EAT KENNY ROGERS. I didn't enjoy my lunch because they gave me a super big CHICKEN BREAST MEAT with very little mushroom sauce. DRY AND TASTELESS. :/

After eating, we went SHOPPING! :D

damn cute right this toilet bowl. out of nowhere they put a toilet bowl in the store.

I love this pullover but everyone say its too BOY-lish.

In the end I got a red jacket. :) I love both but can only get one. Plus they dun really like the pullover. I bought two bracelet. I hardly buy accessories and I LOVE THEM SO MUCH :D

I can't find one of them. It's my favorite one too. :/

went to FOS - Factory Outlet Store. got SHAWN a t-shirt from there. shall upload a photo of him wearing it soon. then the boys got tired and went back to the hotel first. We girls continued walking the whole mall and got tired too.

After slacking in the room for some time, we went out for dinner at the food court.

After dinner, we went ARCADE! :D

We played mini games too and won a lot of coupons, about 600+. But didn't change anything in the end. :/

We played til quite late then went back to the hotel and SLEEP.

DAY 2 - 11.09.2008

We woke up early and went to eat our free BREAKFAST BUFFET! :D

After breakfast, we went to the OUTDOOR THEME PARK! I was damn excited cause I have never sat a roller coaster before, the adult type. but it was too foggy to play. DAMMIT!

so we went Macdonalds to wait for the fog to GO AWAY.

I fell asleep in the Macdonalds
so I was stretching my back. :/
UNGLAM.. I know.

the boys went back to the hotel. we girls walk around again and occasionally went to check if the fog is gone.

still very foggy.
DISAPPOINTED. :(

We were so bored that we got ourselves TATTOOS.

MY VERY FIRST TATTOO. :D
but it's fake. It's sad, I know.

We went to check again, hoping that the FOG is going away. Unfortunately, no. It got worst.

It was getting colder too so while waiting, we decided to have some hot beverage at the coffee bean beside the theme park. It's small but cozy and the place we were sitting had a great view too. :)

The boys, berenice and andy came to meet us when the weather was getting better. :)

When they reached, the fog was gone and the theme park is open! :D

FINAALLYYYY!

We sat the SPACESHOT first. It was so thrilling my heart almost fell out. :/
After that we sat the CORKSCREW - the roller coaster.

We sat the two most thrilling rides first and the rest became too boring for us. :P

There's this scary pirate train. It was "scary" indeed. The train practically just went in a very dark tunnel or something and that was it. Scary isn't it? :/

There was a mini thrill ride called the mine train. THE BELT STINKS WITH MILLIONS OF PEOPLE WHO SWEATED ON IT. The whole ride was a torture. X/

this ride made me dizzy.

Chenghao is very sad.
He can't take some rides. X(

After the swinging which made me dizzy, we sat this pirate ship TWICE. And I really wanted to puked.

SEA SICK ON A PIRATE SHIP -.-

I forgot the name but we call it SPIDERMAN
cause of the design. :D

it has the stinky sweat smell too. but not as bad as the mine train. :/

After the SPIDERMAN ride, I COULDN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.
So we went to eat at a RESTAURANT just like crystal jade- La Mian

went back to the hotel.
We played P.I.G. with poker cards.

COOKING MAMA! :D

Andy and Berenice made one for everyone! :D

After the game, everyone went to their own room to bathe and stuff. Valerie fell had a headache so she fell asleep first. After that nat sleep too. So went over the the boys room. AND I FORGOT TO BRING THE ROOM KEY WITH ME. so I ended up sleeping in their room. :P

DAY 3 - 12.09.2008

woke up late. We packed our bags and left them at the hotel counter. Then we went to eat our brunch at kopitiam.

Feminine Andy

After Brunch, everyone went to different ways. Andy and Berenice went to find Berenice's mum I think. Val and Nat went to make the names for their bird park colleagues. The rest accompany me to buy my jacket. :D

NATTY AND ME!

GOODBYE GENTING! :)

On the bus back to Singapore...

CHENGHAO HATES THIS PHOTO!
cause the main focus is his tummy :x

BACK AT CCK, we went to the food court to eat. And then Andy and Berenice came to find us.
Berenice's mum treated everyone to MOF! YUMMY!
THANKS AUNTY! :)

the loving couple. :)

they GAY-ed the whole trip. z.z

her mum went home first.
HER MUM IS A POLICEWOMAN!
cool right?

everyone went home after that. :)

Photos are from NATALIE LOO.

if you visit her blog, the third link under affiliates,
you can find MANY unglam photos of me.

She's a photographer who loves to take unglam pictures of her friends
and post them on HER BLOG.

but she doesn't like posting her own photos. SO I DID IT FOR HER! :P

LANTERN DAY FESTIVAL'S STEAMBOAT

14 September 2008

went to Keith Poh's house for steamboat with TAN YIHUI! :D
chenghao and his scout gang were there too.

By the time we cleaned up, it was too late to buy candles already.
Thus, we didn't play on LANTERN DAY FESTIVAL. :/

We ended up talking under the void deck.

Zhi hua gave Keith's youngest brother a talk he will never forget. :x

It was hilarious though. :D

walk home with yihui. :)

MY LATEST SLEEPING RECORD

my last sleeping record was 12 hours.
regular readers should know. :)

I BROKE MY OWN RECORD.

I slept from 2am to 7pm.
A total of...

17 HOURS

The amazing thing is I didn't even try! :P
I'm born to do this!

NEXT TARGET TIMING : 20 HOURS

GOOD LUCK TO ME! :P

DINNER WITH VALERIE

Valerie wanted to eat dinner at Jurong Point. Chenghao, BryanGoo and Shawn were there too.

We ate CRYSTAL JADE! :) But this time we didn't order xiaolongbao. :(

I had to rush home cause I promise to buy dinner back.
Well, Valerie said she can't stay out too late cause she has to work the next day and we meet at 7pm. So I figured that I'm able to reach home at 9 or 9 plus.
BUT VALERIE WAS LATE. SO I'M LATE TOO. Then couldn't send GOO back. :/ SORRY GOO!

LOOK AT THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE CAR.
the owner used TAPE to amend the HOLE OF THE CAR.
hilarious isn't it? :x

SUPPERS :)

SUPPER SUPPER SUPPER.
ever since Chenghao has a car.
Our life changed from DAY to NIGHT!

RESULTS

MY RESULTS SUCKS!
AND I'M NOT GONNA TELL YOU HOW I FAIR!
BLEH! TOO BAD! :x

IS ENROLMENT

IS ENROLMENT - 26.09.2008

time slot: 8am - 9.30am
10pm - 12.30am

I missed the 8am slot. I had a stomach ache and I went to lie down.
Unfortunately, I fell asleep. And that's it. it was gone. :/

At 10 pm, there was only two choices. Community and Environment. And I chose environment.
ENVIRONMENT!!!! sounds boring! :/

Calvin Lim totally forgot about IS ENROLMENT and he was left with community. He is very sad now. :(

ENDING

FINALLY, we have come to an end.
I started at 11. 15pm and now it's already 4.30am!

5 HOURS!

and my back hurts. :(

BYE!

- I'm hungry

2008-09-24T04:25:00.002+08:00

I really wanna do a massive update today.

BUT

just uploading and editing images
TOOK HOURS!

and I'm seriously f.up with photobucket.

@.@

I'm gonna crash for now.
shall continue when I wake up.

- there's no love here